... is the one thing that I need most right now. As the days go by to the moment I face another monster in my life. I know my faith will waver, leading me to question things that I don't have answers to. Yet the coward that I am, I'm deliberately prolonging the agony, deliberately forgetting, desperately wanting to forget. The clock ticks. The hands keep moving. Trickling down to the day I face one of my worst fears.
The beauty of stress and school is that they keep you from thinking of things other than what needs to be done right at that moment. The endless studying, cramming, and note taking keeps the mind off things that the subconscious ponders. School is a wonderful excuse of forgetting. It has become my escape.
Unfortunately, stuff that I've outrun are catching up to me. School has ended for the meantime.
I have no excuses left. No more pretenses. No more dreaming. I just wish that the pain will be dulled soon. I just wish that I can soon look back and smile fondly at the hazy, dreamlike memories.
The Basics of Me
- psychedelic pisces
- Bacolod, Philippines
- I'm a walking, talking, living contradiction. As of the moment, I am wondering how i can cheerfully skip september without violating all laws of time and nature.
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You are my doppleganger. Hahaha. Hold my hand. Don't let go. We're going to make it out of the woods together.
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