The Weekend After Cramming

Saturday was awesome all in all. I woke up super late because of a great chat and a view of the rising sun. I promised Ana that we'd watch Evan Almighty and we did. I cried, i think. I thought it would be a no-brainer sequel to Bruce Almighty but it wasn't. It was pretty touching, actually. Loved the animals. Loved "the dance." After the movie, we went to Starbucks to study for a while. Went to mass at 5pm. Ate dinner at Press Cafe. Went to the Bar Operations closed-door meeting in school at Justitia. Sneakingly left the meeting to eat pizza right outside the room. ^__^ *yum yum* Went back to Starbucks to study again. *nerd*

Sunday was even more fun! Met up with my high school besties, Mutya and Meryl aka Moo, at Edsa Shangri-la. Ate lunch at Cravings. The salad bar was *love*. Not that i ate any veggies, but i adore the eggs, pineapple, and onions. >.< style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">*slurp* we pigged out like we always do when we're together. walked around a little and talked a lot. i honestly miss my high school days. it was so normal for us to do this. i felt like i stepped into a time machine that propelled me back to the past. it was a nice feeling. like time never moved forward with the way we are. we are still the same yet i knew that we've changed so much. i never wanted the day to end.

I treasure days like these. Days when i feel so free and loved. Days when all i think about is how to have fun with people i love. I look forward to more of days like these.

Rollercoaster of emotions

I thought i'm past the stage where i can stay up for 24 hours and still function normally. Guess i'm wrong. Patty and i went to her house in BF Homes, Paranaque for an overnight cramming session. Ana tagged along to do some cramming of her own. Hauling our books and laptops, we braved the traffic to Paranaque. Amazing how much work can be done when we're cramming! Thesis deadlines, studying for the elective subjects, memos, and retainer agreement.

As a result, i was super cranky by the time we reached school on Friday morning. *scary* More cramming had to be done and we barely made it in time for our practical midterms for legal counselling. What cheered me up was a comment from the professor that I could be a good fiscal in the future and a high grade to boot. I was so physically drained but also psyched up that i couldn't keep still enough to study for my next class. Hence, my recit was awful! I barely had anything substantial to say. After the endorphines and the blushing shame wore off, i had to drag myself home a precious few hours of sleep. *snore*

I really did intend to go my last class. *nod nod* I set my alarm and it went off. But, darnit, snoozing was such a great idea at that time. *guilty* By the time i finally decided to wake up, i lost the will to attend class. I ended up going to the mall to wait for my friends. By then i was a bit refreshed and willing to take on another all-nighter.

And all-nighter it was. Meeting up with Pa St for a bonding session was on top of my to-do list that night. As always, we ended up chatting, laughing, sharing, and getting to know ourselves up to the wee hours of the morning. One funny moment was when my roomie, Chiqui, went home and locked the door after passing by us. Kamusta naman ang nilock ako sa labas?! Hahahaha. Good thing she woke up to unlock the door for me.

I love mornings and sunrises. Most people think i'm more of a night owl because i tend to stay up late. But i really love watching the sunrise. Refreshing. Like forgiveness just dawns on you. But it's a sight i seldom get to see. Thank you for the sunrise.

A Day With My Best Friend

I’m writing this while listening to Hyde’s Shallow Sleep.

Yesterday was an eventful day. Woke up feeling refreshed, watched a couple of episodes of Japanese jdoramas, ate pizza for lunch and texted my high school best friend, Mutya, if she was free. She agreed to come to Powerplant with her brother. *danced with joy* I finally get to hang out with her (our attempts to see each other was foiled by the typhoons). Spontaneous works best with us, proven and tested. I toured her and her little brother, Tim, around the mall and shopped. We finally got to talk and just hang out. She treated us merienda while dinner was on me. All in all, it was a great way to catch up. But it was bitin. I felt like I wanted to tell her so many things but I didn't have enough time.

She’s the kind of person who’s genuinely adorable. And I love her. Being with her for the past 18 years is such a blessing. One I often take for granted. I often think that she’s been the glue to our barkada, the mom/ate, the joker, the most friendly, the most beautiful, the practical one, the dependable one. But she’s leaving. Leaving for the States. To be with her husband. The reason she’s here in Manila was to get her visa. She’s here to chase her dream. A fairytale love story, a fairytale wedding with hopefully a fairytale ever after.

I should be happy. I am happy for her. But the selfish little child in me is crying. She’s leaving. Leaving us. She is the last constant reminder of my high school life. Life as I know it will soon change. I fear that change. I might not handle it was gracefully as I can. Without her, we might break. Without her, we might forget the “us” that we once were. I pray for the strength to keep our friendship.

“To where has love gone? Will I ever reach it? The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside.” – The Cape of Storms by Hyde in Kagen No Tsuki

I realize that the past trials that almost broke us apart was cushioned by her presence. She is the healer of broken hearts and broken spirits. With her help and her constant presence, we found forgiveness and a sense of peaceful acceptance. More trials loom, threatening to break the mended bonds. Distance. Change. Adulthood. I pray for a stronger love. I pray that 10 years from now, we can look back chuckling over our own foolishness and baseless fears. I desperately wish for that future because I am afraid of the present.

“Fear is the mind-killer. I will face my fear. I will let it pass through me.” – Leto, Children of Dune

Dahil Masaya Ako...

... (^_^)

It's been a week of lounging around. The solitude I've wished for after the midterms was granted with the continuous typhoons. I've spent my waking hours alone and doing things I've wanted to do [slept the days away, chatted with some friends abroad, did errands, watched all my favorite jdoramas]. Today, I wanted that solitude to end. I needed company, the face-to-face kind of conversation, the smile on a friend's face, the warmth of another's friendship. So I met up with friends.

I had a movie-and-dinner-with-friends night. I went with my friends to Starbucks Block 9 and discussed some school stuff. Rach wanted to watch a movie which Ana and I planned to watch with Euns. Kaso, nag-last full show sila ni Quani last night [hmp! nang-iwan! ;p] Good thing nagyaya si Rach. And so we watched... A Love Story. Yes, the one starring Maricel Soriano and Aga Muhlach. And we watched it at Powerplant with a full-packed cinema. Ika nga ni Euns, "huwag i-underestimate ang powers ni Maricel and Aga." True enough, the cinema was full with people of all ages. On my part, I watched it to confirm who the querida was. [i knew it! we've had a long dinner conversation over this issue: Maricel or Angelica] It was a beautiful twist to the film. I also liked how it ended. It wasn't the ending that I envisioned but I liked it nonetheless. It's an Aga classic. In fairness, Aga's pecs and abs were defined!

After the movie, we went back to Starbucks to meet up with the nerdy bunch (the ones who stayed behind to study/chat/surf the net). Rach decided to treat us dinner and drinks at Good Earth. Thank you, Rach! Advance Happy Birthday (Aug. 22)!

Tarot Talks

I'm sleepy now but i'm all smiles. A boring day ended with a blast. What i thought would be an earlier cap to my study night turned out to be a father-daughter bonding + bunch of friends = fun.

Thank you, pa st: for coming all the way to rockwell to talk with me and getting lost on the way, for sharing with me, for meeting my friends, for making me feel good as always. I always feel that i've never thanked you enough. Spontaneous tayo!

The night started out with the usual dinner and starbucks study session. A friend decided to drop by and catch up. We went to Good Earth to talk and catch up. I sorted out the tarot cards that i liked and began telling the story behind the card, analyzing it with my friend.
1 text message received. "uuwi na kami qtr to 12. " So i went back intending to get my stuff. Friend: Alis na kami in a while, kung gusto mo kunin mo na stuff mo sa car para maiwan ka na kasama friend mo. Me: Ok, cge. Kwentuhan lang kami dun at tarot.
Tarot. Hearing the word perked them up, all of them suddenly wanted a tarot reading. Nagkahiyaan pa, isa isang pumunta sa Good Earth to meet my friend. Eventually, inuman na. Chill out before midterms.

I never really mix my social circles. I keep my high school friends from my college friends and my college friends from my law school friends. I compartmentalize. Probably because in each circle i am different. I am the me who they think i am. Sometimes, the me that they need me to be. Tonight was a first. A college friend hanging out with my law school barkada. I found out that it was actually fun. An exception to my general rule.

We never really know how things turn out. Every human act changes an outcome. There is a thing called fate but a single human will can alter it.