Fear of the Unknown

The spaces in between

The lapses of silence

Sometimes scare me.

I’m not good at subtle

Tell me, talk to me

But I am afraid

Of knowing, of the reality,

Of change, of things yet to come,

Of what I have to hear.

I am such a coward.

I've Just Turned 24!

Birthdays and more

It’s my birthday week! *giddy* BUT it’s also my hellweek.

Why the hell? Because it’s the week for make-up classes, specifically, conflict of laws. We’re having 8 hours of grueling recitations in 3 days. The assurance of having been called for recitation last year did not stop my heart from palpitating during class. Added to that was our other usual subjects to study for.

By Wednesday night, it was exhausted to my marrow. Thursday was March 6, *tada* my birthday! By 12 midnight, my phone was ringing and text messages were pouring in. *giddy with joy* My roommates who were playing computer games with me didn’t even have a clue! Ehehehe When I woke up, messages were still coming in and I was constantly talking to someone on the phone. My roomies finally realized that it was a special day and organized a small house party. Wow! I really don’t have organizational skills whatsoever so I let them. Cut my class, cleaned the house, organized our stuff, washed the laundry, and changed the sheets and covers.

I went to class bombarded with greetings. I don’t like being the center of attention but I secretly adore it. I hate it when the class sings “happy birthday” because I turn so red, but I secretly love that they remember my birthday and are trying to make an effort to care.

I was still buying grocery at Rustan’s when Ces called me asking me where I was.

“I’m at the grocery,” I replied.

“What time will you be back?” I heard the urgency in her voice. Hmm, something was wrong.

“After around 15 minutes,” I said.

“What?! [long pause] Um, you have to go home. We’re, uh, outside your unit waiting for you. We knocked but no one answered. Hurry back, we’ll be waiting outside.” She hung up.

I got home as soon as I can. And viola! They were right outside my unit, dejected and slumped on the couch. It was the funniest sight I’ve seen that day! Apparently, they wanted to surprise me with flowers...

and candy-sprinkled, candle-covered choco marshmallow cake. The candles melted but the big grin on my face remained.

I couldn’t ask for better friends.

Thank you so much. Ana, Ces, Chinky, Chris, Eunice, Hazel, Jo, Leah, Melodie, Patty, and Yoyen. It’s another great birthday with you girls.